0 cookie(s) ● Thursday, April 12, 2012 ● 2:22 PM
Ehem.
Hi galsss! long time no seeee! I used to stop blogging for a while due to my focus on the national exam but.. finally I still haven't been ready to face and fight the national exam. Gosh.
Well I actually wanna tell you something that... that I've never told you or anyone in my public blog before. It's abstractly and randomly about... a boy. Well, not boy like that, not my boyfriend cause I've never had any boyfriend though. Not even about a close boy of mine but... a junior.
I forget and can never remember the first time I saw him, either on a basketball extracurricular or wherever it is. But a thing that I remember is when I saw him, when I was on 'pendopo', without knowing his name or any information about him, I adored him quietly from about 5 meters away. Wondering on my head what his name is. And hoping nothing to God but just to know his name before I leave that school.
And a thing that I remember is I used to want to know just his name, cause I thought this was just a 'glance-crush', just saw that he's cute and lovely, and wouldn't continue to know his personal information moreover chasing him or having a real crush on him. And I thought that it's only the face of him that I adore, so that I thought I wouldn't need to tell anyone about him.
But the story changed a lot after I told my friends in class 9-5 that I adored him. I never expect this, but they randomly knew his name and told me his name. *They were at pendopo, next to him and his group of friends, and my friends heard his name but not really sure, and called his name just to test that his name was right or wrong. And it was wrong. They call the second possibility of name, and he looked at them. wahahahaha.* And the improvement of knowing his personal information improved so quickly because *again* they, especially Cidut told me his complete name, his facebook account and of course I searched his twitter username. I HAD NEVER planned to stalk him this far, but... once I knew his personal information, I got addicted and just can't stop. I thought I wouldn't have this freakin' crush on him this bad. And till now, I just haven't had enough courage to directly talk to him or text him. Such. A. Fool. I. Am.
I really.. reaallyyy don't wanna leave this school before he knows me and we can be friends. But... I never make any effort because of my fear. My fear that he wouldn't give a damn on me. I'm just too scared to be ignored, moreover rejected by him. I'm just too frightened to take the risk, to be known as a weird and random senior who seek her junior's attention. I can never imagined if he just finally hates me and don't wanna know anything about me. I'm too pessimistic.
What should I do?
Oh well! That's some. Just wanna share, because I think my just mind don't need to save any other thoughts but the lessons, that's why I share this. Give this post not any damn! Bubbye :D
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0 cookie(s) ● Thursday, February 2, 2012 ● 7:53 PM
I was depressed of my jealousy with everything, with every people. I was searching for quotes of jealousy to express my mind, til I found a unique quote of jealousy. It includes GOD inside. And I realized, my SAVIOR just opened my heart not to keep myself being depressed with those words of jealousy, but to make me feel loved and cared, by GOD, by my LORD, JESUS. I... I feel so lucky to have HIM by my side and being in the right way. :')
There's no enough quotes to express how Jesus has loved, cared and saved us.
But the most important thing is... I'm JESUS'S, I'm praying to HIM, I'm Trusting HIM, I'm owned by HIM, and HE saves me, I BELIEVE.
I'M PRAISING HIM TO THE ETERNITY<3
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0 cookie(s) ● ● 6:13 PM
but..
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0 cookie(s) ● ● 5:50 PM
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0 cookie(s) ● Monday, January 23, 2012 ● 12:50 AM
Sweet and fun! They make this song become sooo attractive. Get it on your ipod soon!
But check this out first ;)
Without You - David Guetta feat. Usher
I can't win, I can't reign
I will never win this game
Without you, without you
I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same
Without you, without you
I won't run, I won't fly
I will never make it by
Without you, without you
I can't rest, I can't fight
All I need is you and I,
Without you, without.... You!
Oh oh oh
You you you
Without
You you you
Without you..
Can't erase, so I'll take blame
But I can't accept that we're estrange
Without you, without you
I can't quit now, this can't be right
I can't take one more sleepless night
Without you, without you
I won't soar, I won't climb
If you're not here I'm paralyzed without you, without you
I can't look, I'm so blind
Lost my heart, I lost my mind without you without... You!
Oh oh oh
You you you
Without
You you you
Without you..
I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same
Without you, without you, WITHOUT YOU
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0 cookie(s) ● Saturday, January 21, 2012 ● 12:04 AM
It's 11.40 already. And I'm stupidly keep on thinking about my blog when everything I should have done is study to prepare my Try Out Exam tomorrow. And you-know-wuttt?? I haven't study yet, even a little bit. Pffft. Isn't that stupid to be randomly depressed by blog? Okay, I don't even know how many times I've been stressed by blog customization. ARGH.
And this time, all my posts' alignment suddenly changed into center. I don't remember what I've been done to my template codes when suddenly the random editing I made just been saved by itself. Crappp-_-
Gosh...PLEASE, someone, help me. I'd be so much thankful for your helps.
Yap, 12.10 a.m. already on my clock. I gotta sleep. Wish me luck for the try out tomorrow guys, Jesus Bless :) Good Night :)
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0 cookie(s) ● Tuesday, January 17, 2012 ● 8:29 PM
An old song, that never dies I guess. I've been listening to this song since a couple of years ago, since like I was in my elementary school, in the 5th or 6th grade, I don't remember exactly. I've been listening to it without reading or knowing either the lyrics or the meaning of this song.
And till one day, a couple of days ago, one of my friends, Caca, ask me if I know this song or not, and I told her I do. And the next two or three days, she told me that this song actually meant to be made for parents. I don't feel the meaning that deep because I haven't read the lyrics yet, since I can't understand some native song singers' pronunciation well.
But I just googled this song's lyrics, and it touches my mind so deeply. It realizes me how bad my attitude to my parents has been for the years I've been living. Since I think it's a so-much-recommended song, you gotta check this out:
Hurt - Christina Aguilera<--click to listen to the song
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Oooh, oooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there
Oooooh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
Whoooooooaaa
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
Ooooh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
Ooooh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away
Ooooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Oooh, oooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there
Oooooh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
Whoooooooaaa
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
Ooooh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
Ooooh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you since you've been away
Ooooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you
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